Daily I choose to be the kind of spouse, the kind of mom, the kind of friend, and the kind of family member that sharpens. I choose to put my own selfish gains aside in order to uplift someone else. To think outside myself and look at the Kingdom.
This choice is not easy. I often fail and have to remind myself what my goal is. This verse is the thing that reminds me. Every time I read it I remember what my purpose is about. Why God has given us one another. Why God was intent on creating humans all different and all unique. So that we may build up one another. That we may encourage one another to be all that God has created us to be.
There was a time in my life that I dealt with depression. It was not the kind where I couldn't get out of bed and see daylight but instead the kind where I could not find joy in anything. I could not see the beauty God had laid before me. I struggled daily to look outside myself to look outside my woo is me heart. My life seemed to be crumbling before me and I froze. Luckily though God had surrounded me with people who were able to lift me out of that cloud of darkness. They were able to remind me of the promises of God and how worthy I am to be His child.
Some days I fear going back to that dark place. But then I make myself pause and look around me. I see the beauty God has created, I remember His promises. I see the joy He has brought me in my husband and my son and I tell myself I will choose life in God. I will not allow darkness to enter my heart and as much as the devil tries to weasel his way in I will call him out with the name of the Almighty.
If you are in that place please know there is hope. There is comfort in the cross. God will make everything anew around you. And choose to believe that. Choose to let those around you sharpen you. Daily it is a choice.
attracted by your name -specifically the spelling of it. wonder why? love the honesty. can relate. been there too. keep choosing to see the beauty. soon it will come naturally. have a joy-filled, beautiful weekend ~ kelley
ReplyDeletei love this. i have been thinking about this very thing recently...it is like you took the words right out of my brain. :) gosh i wish we lived closer!:)
ReplyDeleteKelley- I needed to read that. I'm in that exact place right now; have been for over a year. Its scary and not good. I feel like I'm drowning in the waves and can't lift my head out to breathe and handle life. Although anyone looking at my life would think "she's got it good" what is there to be sad about? Everyone's grief is their own I guess. I've just been trying to remind myself that I'm learning Satan is using this to get in my head and pull me under. I want God to slap me in the face and yell, "FIGHT, fight back, for your life, fight for me." It's good to know you can climb out of it and be happy.
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