My brain is running a thousand miles a minute these days with all the new things going on. I am a big fan of change but sometimes my mind can't comprehend it all.
And I cannot believe our baby is coming in like 4 months! Seriously, that seems like tomorrow. In 4 months I will be a mommy. I will now have another hat to wear and another name to be called. I am just picture our cute little guy saying mommy for the first time. But I'm sure as quickly as he says that he will be saying "no mommy" and I will have to learn how to disipline him. I barely feel like I can be disiplined in my relationship with God and soon I will have a little one to teach about God. Wow... so crazy to think God trust me and Wade to be parents. When I was little I always pictured being a mom and love that I am becoming a mom already but it is just crazy to think what a huge blessing this guy will be and what a huge responsibility at the same time.
Another thing I've been thinking about is work. I love my job. I love that I get paid to love on high school girls. I love that God has placed me in a place where I get to share His love for us with others. But I've just been thinking alot about how baby will play into this mix. All you moms out there have any words of wisdom?
I also spend alot of my day debating what food I want to eat. Seriously, who spends an hour deciding on what to make for dinner? Sometimes I wish I could plan a menu and just stick to it so I don't stare so blindly into my fridge thinking of all the things I could make with a piece of chicken. But that is what I do. I stare at the chicken and wonder what its destiny should be for dinner. I love to cook and I think that is what makes it so hard for me to decide because I will look at the things in the fridge and think of all the new things I could create and try with it. By the time I decide what I want I am so hungry that I just make chicken and pasta or chicken salad. So maybe this week I will actually stare at all the food when I get back from the grocery store and plan out what I will make before the night of.
Oh and to top it all off the weather can't make up its mind either. It has gone from rain to sleet to snow about 5 times today. I guess it is just as confused about change as i am :)
Awwww, girl! I have to admit that this post kind of made me grin. You're acquiring the "Mommy brain" in which I'm CERTAIN we run off of fewer and fewer brain cells with every 24hrs that pass by. No joke. Sometime I stare at my chicken, too. Don't worry it is NORMAL.
ReplyDeleteAs for raising kids, and teaching them to love the Lord, it is SCARY. A priviledge, but still scary. They watch every move we make, and soak every word in. We really have to make sure we are following God in all things or else it is easy to be overwhelmed. Just pray and ask Him to help you. He will.
Wish I had some advice for you about work, but I haven't worked since before I had my baby. I enjoy staying at home, and can't imagine working and being a Momma, too. But, I know everyone isn't like that...you have to do what feels right to you!
I am LOVING your V-Day stories, girl, you and your hubby are too cute. :)
PLAN your meals before you go shopping...it is that much easier on your pregger brain. And I hate to break it to you, but you will be disciplining LONG before Mommy... ;)I feel this huge responsibility about teaching Gooner about the Love of Christ as well, so huge. BUT, she LOVES her Bible. She gets all excited and yah, so cute. Oh, and Pampers newborns are SO MUCH BETTER than Huggies newborns. When Baby G gets older the differences are quite as huge. BUT Pampers have this little strip that starts as yellow and turns green when he pees. It really is one less thing to worry about right after you've given birth. Just food for thought after looking at your super cute registry. I already have something from your registry but forgot to have them mark the sheet. If you get two, bummer. Plus, I knew you'd peek.
ReplyDeleteHang in there and take it one day at a time...that is really the only way to survive. I always thought I would work outside the home, never even desired to be a SAHM (stay at home mom)...then I felt her kicks and the hormones kicked in and then I was desperate to stay home. So we made it work. Some days I still wish I did work and others I am glad I made the decision to be a SAHM. Everybody's circumstance is different. But TRUST yourself whatever you decide will be the right choice ( I say you b/c your hubby can not comprehend the emotions that come w/ pregnancy...mine was firm on me working and then when she popped out and he held her it ALL changed :) ).
ReplyDeleteAnyway, I am sure you will be a great mommy...I mean you are a KSU grad what more do you need ;)
P.S you friend is right Pampers Swaddlers ROCK and I wouldn't use anything else... (although, the little yellow line didn't always show up on every pack I got...not sure what was up w/ that?!)
I just want to say that you are already a Mommy :) You became a Mommy the moment you discovered who you were carrying inside, my dear, so don't sell yourself short!
ReplyDeleteAlso, I enjoy making my menu for the week. I think it is fun to have a rough plan of at least 4 meals for the week, especially new meals to try. Then I make sure I have all of the supplies from my grocery shopping DAY (more than one store here!) and I am set for the week. It eliminates the picking and choosing and staring. Before marriage I used to stare at my closet trying to decide what to wear. Oh how the times have changed! Loves to you!