lately.

I have been thinking a lot about the new role God has me in. I realize this is the one job in my life that I can't leave. I can't stop being a mom and wife. I can't one day decide its too much and find another occupation. Some days this really freaks me out. Not because I don't love LB and hubs but because of the huge responsibility God has granted me. Any of you all feel that way at times? Don't get me wrong I absolutely love being a mom and wife but it is scary at times realizing what a huge responsibility it really is and how much it requires. A lot of times I wonder how different life would be if the church really was acting like the body of Christ. Ya know like in the book of Acts when they all lived in community together and did life besides one another. Learning and living out God's plan. Teaching and discipling the ones a stage behind. Growing in numbers daily those who were being saved. I long for the day that we will wake up and be the body. We will reach out and do. I realize that this starts with me and my house. I must serve my family and all those who enter through my doors. "Let your light shine before others, that they may see your good deeds and glorify your Father in heaven." Matthew 5:16 

Then conviction hits me and I realize that I am not glorifying God in everything I do. I repent and hope I can stay on His path and really make a difference in my family. I started reading the book 20 and Counting by Michelle and Jim Bob Duggar and ya know it really did convict me. It really did make me realize how I am not setting my family up to be the best they can be. I am not continually giving my husband a place of honor amongst people. "Her husband is respected at the city gate, where he takes his seat among the elders of the land." Proverbs 31:23 I look at the Duggar's and see Michelle's faith shining through out the book and tv series. She is a modern day Proverbs 31 woman. I am grateful that God has given them the opportunity to share their life with us. It is great to see a Christian family in action and it makes me long even more for the Acts kind of church. So that we can be surrounded by these kinds of families and women daily. 

I am a work in progress. I must constantly remind myself of that so I do not grow weary. "Because of the LORD’s great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness." Lamentations 3:22-23